I AM ALIVEEEE....but YELLOW!!

on Wednesday, July 18, 2007


Alright I know I have been away for over two months now, but that does not mean I am dead. I am very much alive, if only JAUNDICE does not decide to kill me!!

Not like I was toooo busy, but somehow could not take out time for my blog, okay I am horrible, selfish, mean..blah blah blah...okay now shut up and listen!! ( I know I don't talk like this..telling you..its all because of the frigging 'peelya' (yeah...that's what its called in hindi/urdu))

So...firstly SORRY for being away for so long, neither writing nor visiting any blogs. Secondly...jaundice is taking a toll over my brain because of which I for the first time chose to write about MYSELF on my blog.

There was allot that I saw, noticed, realized and wanted to write about...be it about family weddings or strange kids acting too smart...huh...but today I want to vent out my frustrations...my deepest desire on my blog. All I can think about, dream about, see around me, smell around me feel around and the ONLY craving since the past fifteen days is FOR FOOD!! (just told you...jaundice is taking its toll :p )

I am dying to have chicken nuggets...I can actually feel its taste in my mouth, but sadly can not eat ANYTHING for the next two months at least and NO NON VEG for the next 6 fucking months!! And people expect me not to want to have 'samosas' in this rainy season. GOD DAMN IT!! "What is going wrong with you?? You were never so fond of samosas?', questions my mother, and all I can do is lying on my bed, is give her the look that says 'does it matter? I cant eat it anyway, right??'

And to top it all, my Uncle is coming from Sharjah, and I so badly want to ask him to get me 'shawarmas' (it is a Lebanese dish/snack...whatever), but ha ha...can I? NO!! Oh...my college is also re opening next week, and the ONLY reason I survive in that sickening college is because you get awesome food in the canteen, but then yeaaaah...shit happens...:X!! And if you thought, my unfulfilled cravings is the only reason why I crib, how about having your birthday in some days and NOT BEING ABLE TO PARTY!!gggrrrr......

My food cravings are endless...can go on forever. But I hope, that this outrage may help in making me feel any better and little less restless and hungry and greedy for wontons, rajma chawal (kidney beans with rice), kebabs, sheermal, wine, and yes I can still go on....

I have always loved fresh juices, but not anymore, have had enough for the next two lives!! Though, I do get to automatically lose weight, can say 'I am on a detoxifying period' etc etc...but GUYS...FOOD IS FOOD!! isn't it?

I hope and pray with a true heart today, that no one, should ever ever ever get jaundice! JAUNDICE IS FATAL - NOT EATING WHAT YOU WANT, KILLS!!

5 comments:

Neo said...

hey u got jaundcie?? me too!! hope u get well soon...wats ur bilirubin level???

Ainz said...

Hey! Shit! I'm really sorry for the Shawarma situation ya! I know I'd kill for one of those authentic shawarmas again... (been 13 months since my last and I'm drooling now!)... Anyway... I had jaundice when I was little.... had mattar-pulao (peas with rice) for 2 frekkin months straight.... lunch and dinner... and snack!

Anyway Get well soon you...

and then maybe you can dig into that yummy tikka sooner than you think! (from the photo) ;-)

Rajeev said...

uh! that sucks! :P
heheh! get well soon! :)
btw someone tole me that sugarcane juice is very good for jaundice!
take that as much as possible! :)

peace & love
Jeevy

The Lass said...

patience, dear patience...
get well soon!

Nabila Zehra Zaidi said...

@ neo...lol..i wonder whether i shud feel happy 2 have a partner or feel sad for you having to go through the same...well...my level at the moment is 10, but the doc says it will increase (gggrrrrr.....:X) anyway...you get well soon too!! :-)

@ ainz....ooohhh...how i wish i could dig into those tikkas and everything tasty and edible around me....by the way...feeling sad for you too..13 FRIGGING MONTHS AND NO SHAWRMAS!!!haan..!! aarrggh...hope you get your share of that yyuuummm delicious roll soon...thanks anyway!! (and yeah...No matar pulao for me for another 2 weeks :()

@ Jeevy...yes baby...IT SUCKS to the core!! Oh yeah...sugarcane is suppose to be the best...but the fresh cane juice available outside...nneeaaah..aint hygenic enough and also raw sugarcane is not available anywhere here....have been looking for it for long now...Thanks, anyway!! :)

@ Lass...aarrgghh....I am running out of that....>>sigh<< But I shall keep reminding myself that ;) Thanks!!